Intentions
I have always believed that people have good intentions and that they do what they say they will. That has put me through a lot of pain throughout years.
Why do I accept lower standards for people than what I accept for myself? I do what I say, I commit even though it is hard, I do the work if I think it is worth it.
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Capacity
Some people want everything but they only have capacity to handle one thing at a time.
In the beginning, they made me think that they really wanted to be a significant part of my life. Maybe along the way they realized what it would take or maybe they changed their mind on how significant they wanted to be. If it is rejection, it is easy to take. The problem is ambiguity.
After repeated experiences, I finally understand that ambiguity is rejection.
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Expectations
Expectations are what hurts.
Now that they have gotten what they want from me, they are on to their next project. It may not even be another person, it probably isn't. It is probably what they were focusing on before they met me. First, work. Next, hobbies. Finally, me.
I see the pattern, and I don't expect anymore.
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